"Dont know why I'm still afraid, If you weren't real I would make you up"

So it's a ridiculous hour in the morning and clearly from me posting a blog suggests I can not sleep one little bit.
Papa says "If you can't sleep there must be something on your mind,what's up?" Well to be honest my minds in a bit of a pickle at the moment, my thinking's just all over the place. Don't get me wrong I'm content just a tad confused.


Change, my most hated word from the Oxford English dictionary. Whether for better or for worse I still detest it. I don't seem to understand why I dislike it so much, maybe because I like simplicity and I like everything to be my way. So now this leads me on to telling my strange ways, the list is fairly lengthy so bare with me;
1. When sitting out anywhere like a restaurant or a cafe, I have to sit against the wall and it has to be in the corner. If this doesn't happen I begin to develop a temper.
2. Number one also applies to car, passenger seats; must always sit on the left hand side of the car.
3. My bed has to be made a certain way, only I can do this, this includes 5 pillows
4.When I do the washing up I always do it twice, everything must be clean
5. Checking to see if I've locked up correctly, I'll do this twice maybe three times
6.The door has to be shut behind me in which ever room I am in
7.Things not being put back into the correct places, winds me up like something chronic 
8. When I take tablets all the foil covering has to be removed when taking out the tablet
9. Plugs must be taken out of their sockets after I use them 
Urmm let's just say, maybe I might have a tiny form of ocd, I'm tired of routine and i'm tired of being tired. Someone please distract me
.x


p.s. I didn't actually sleep till gone 5 o'clock this morning, ergh